First of all let me state that I am not condoning Donald Sterling’s statements. He is clearly a confused man who has a lot of issues that I am sure date back many years. What I am saying is this… "he who is without sin cast the first stone". I want everyone who is reading this to think about his or her own past. Have you ever said anything about another race at any time in your life? If you are being honest with yourself you will say yes. Does that make you a racist? Probably not, but if those comments or thoughts were aired for everyone in the nation to hear you would most likely be viewed as one. Would that be fair? No, it wouldn't. Is it then fair that we should hold Donald Sterling’s personal and private conversation against him? I want to say no but I can’t. However this should never have been made public and before you pass judgment on Mr. Sterling for his words think about how many skeletons you have in your own closest. Don’t get me wrong, what Donald Sterling said on the recording was appalling and reprehensible and I know he needs to be held accountable. It’s just that like most everyone else I have made some stupid and ignorant comments in my life but they weren't publicized for all the world to see.
That being said, I have been a Clipper fan since they moved to Los Angeles and have suffered through many disappointing and frustrating years. Not only was I compelled to watch a bad basketball team, I also had to endure harassment by a multitude of Laker fans. Then something wonderful happened. They won the draft lottery, selected Blake Griffin with the first overall pick and Donald Sterling decided to open his wallet. The franchise did a 180 degree turn around and became a destination for some of the best players in the league. They have what is possibly the most talented Clipper team in the history of the organization and possibly the entire NBA. I finally had a reason for hope in this franchise… And then this happened. I am angry with Donald Sterling for his comments but I am even more angry with the Jezebel who made them public. As selfish as this may seem I can’t help but wish that this woman would have just kept quiet. I know it’s not a good thing to play Ostrich, bury your head in the sand and ignore the truth but in this instance, for me at least, ignorance would have been bliss.
With all that has transpired over the last few days I am confused, frustrated, upset and depressed. After twenty five or so years of being a dedicated and loyal Clipper fan it’s hard for me to imagine that I will ever feel the same about them again. I finally had a team that was deserving of my devotion but now I don’t know how I feel. There is however one word that keeps coming to mind when I think about this season, the team and the way I feel… Lost.